had a weird conversation with the parental units this morning. they asked about the hospital thing. and told me they don't want me there. apparantly, they're under the impression that i'll just be picking a fight with the MD everytime.

i don't pick fight!

i just don't back down.

two totally different things!

eniweiz, so gonna give them a call later telling them i already got a job. it is actually true. will be accepting the teaching post.

it's more of pride that's making me want to get in the hospital... prove that i am good. something like that. so maybe it is a good thing that the thing was taken out of my hand. hehehe...

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love the new coke jingle! it's soooo nice! the song conveys so much hope. lovely song.

sana'y masabi sa awit kong ito

lahat ng ninanais nitong puso ko

sana saan man patungo sa buhay

may pag-ibig, may pag-asa, may saya, may saysay.

sana sa bawat sandali matikman pa

sarap ng pagsasama at simpleng ligaya.

sana bawat araw laging may saya

laging may ngiti,

laging kasama ka

sana kasama ka sa saya ng buhay

kasama ka't kahawak ang kamay

at sa bawat himig

sana'y marinig mo

pagmagkasama isang awit ng puso.

sana sa bawat sandali matikman pa

sarap ng pagsasama at simpleng ligaya.

tara na, sakyan lang,

malay mo andyan lang,

andyan lang ang hinahanap mo.

andyan lang, andyan lang ang hinahanap mo.

dunno how reliable my lyrics is. heard this full version in the radio awhile ago. it's nice noh? noh? noh? hahaha!

everything seems so simple when we were younger. everything is black and white. it is wrong to steal. it is wrong to lie. sex should come after marriage. pain is bad.

when did things get complicated anyway?

when we realize the existence of a gray area?

does this mean that the gray is wrong? should there be only two sides? is one things only good or evil? what is the absolute truth?

trying to make sense of the chaos theory. what i know about it for the longest time is that it goes something like, "a butterfly flaps its' wings in Brazil, and creates a hurricane in Florida" (or something to that effect). having watched CSI Nevada's episode on Chaos Theory last night, it suddenly makes sense (i think). it's like, forget linear thinking... totally random events leading to a specific situation. it sounds alot like what was explained in The Unbearable Lightness of Being. That was how Thomas and Theresa's relationship was explained. 6 seemingly random things that made them know that they were meant to be with each other.

hm. disorganized chaos works!

Mistress Complex. A condition characterized by retardation in social skill acquisition in terms of developing relationship with people, limited to the opposite gender. Or to be politically-correct, to the gender one is attracted to. We shall thereafter term this as the preferred gender.

The Mistress Complex often manifest with a strange attraction to the preferred gender who is in a relationship with someone else, denial of pursuing a relationship with the preferred gender in spite of the preferred gender’s current relationship, and the bizarre perception of being friends with the preferred gender.

Before we go into further detail in describing the Mistress Complex, let us first define what is meant by the word ‘friend’ in this context.

According to a reliable source who scanned this from a book which was something about Social Skills in the Elementary Grade (or something to that effect), a friend is someone who moves within your network. It may also be termed metaphorically as someone who is in your universe.

Now, how do we classify someone who is in your network or in your universe? It would be simpler to tell you who is not. A friend is not someone who just lives near your place, was with you in college, your place of work or the likes, or was introduced by someone you know. He/she needs not be someone you speak to often. This is called an acquaintance. With a friend, you need to have developed a certain level of trust with this person. Your circle of friends must move socially with his/her circle of friends. In cases which involve the preferred gender, you must also be in speaking terms with the preferred gender’s current relationship. This word ‘friend’ has actually provoked a series of debates between the author and the reliable source. The author believes that ‘friends’ need not move in each other’s universe to call each other friends.

To be continued… (too sleepy to think straight)