It was the end of another great day spent with Brent –lunch at Chocolate Kiss, watching two French films at the Art Film in Greenbelt and capping it with dinner at Mexicali, another favorite. These Saturday thing has been going on for a couple of weeks now. And I’m starting to get used to it. I’m starting to get used to him. Oh, gad, who am I kidding! I’m in love with him! Too bad he only thinks I’m a friend. When we started this Saturday routine (as we call it), I had this glimmer of hope that maybe, possibly, there’s this really small chance he’s into me. But after asking about my friend for the nth time and telling me how pretty he thinks she is, the spark of hope crumbled. It’s now or never.
NT: BRENT’S CAR: NIGHT
BRENT just parked his car in front of my gate. I’m getting ready to get out of the car.
ME
(looking straight at Brent, smiling)
Thanks po.
BRENT
(smiles back but has difficulty looking at ME, gripping at the steering wheel)
No problem.
A minute of tensed silence.
ME
Um... sige, I’ll be going na.
I start fiddling with the lock of the car. I was about to open the car door. Then I changed my mind. Slumps back in the seat, stared ahead.
ME
(con’t.)
I have something to tell you.
He suddenly looked at me. Expectant silence.
ME
(con’t.)
I can’t see you again na.
Brent suddenly looks at her in shock.
BRENT
Huh? Baket?
ME
(steadily staring straight ahead, refusing to look at Brent)
Uh... we’ve been sort of going out for a few months na. And I know na you see us as just good friends. I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but I really like you. A lot. And I know you don’t feel the same way. I can’t go out with you anymore. Ang hirap kasi ng situation na eh. Thanks.
I gives him a quick peck in the cheek.
ME
(con’t.)
Bye.
I hurriedly opens and shuts the door, leaving Brent in stunned silence staring after me.
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Too bad she still has a curfew. It would be good to have coffee after dinner. I really need a smoke. Why is it every time I see her, she seems to be getting prettier each time? Ano pa kayang i-gaganda nya next Saturday? Nakakahiya naman... obvious na yatang parati nalang akong napapatitig sa kanya. When will I get the chance to tell her how I really feel? Mukhang wala naman kasi akong pag-asa. Ni hindi man lang nagseselos kapag nagtatanong ako tungkol kay Rica. Ma-ta-timingan ko rin yan.
INT: MY CAR: NIGHT
I just parked my car in front of JESSIE’s gate. She looks queasy in her seat.
JESSIE
(looking straight at me, smiling)
Thanks po.
ME
(smiles back shyly looking at her)
No problem.
Comfortable silence.
JESSIE
Um... sige, I’ll be going na.
I start opening the lock of the car. I started bending forward to open the door for her. Held back. She suddenly slumps back in the seat.
JESSIE
(staring straight ahead, looking very serious)
I have something to tell you.
I looked at her questioningly.
JESSIE
(con’t.)
I can’t see you again na.
Stunned.
ME
Huh? Baket?
JESSIE
(still staring steadily straight ahead)
Uh... we’ve been sort of going out for a few months na. And I know na you see us as just good friends. I don’t know if you’ve noticed, but I really like you. A lot. And I know you don’t feel the same way. I can’t go out with you anymore. Ang hirap kasi ng situation na eh. Thanks.
She lightly grazed her lips on my cheek. I can’t seem to form any coherent thought.
JESSIE
(con’t.)
Bye.
She hurriedly opens and shuts the door, leaving me with my jaw hanging open. What the hell just happened here?!