i get sick once a year.  really sick... the kind where you get the fever and chills and body pain... all those crap.  on good years, i have them for like 2 days max.  but on really bad ones, like the one i had since last week, terrible!

i am one of the worst sick patients ever.  i refuse to move.  i like staying curled up in bed not moving.  i take my meds, but i refuse to eat.  anything substantial i throw up.  i have a diet of apples and water.  i only feel better with apples.  its psychotic. i lose alot of weight (can you imagine????) which i need a year to regain coz of being sick.

i think i found the bestest diet ever!  the diet: no food diet.  when you get really hungry, you can only have water and fruits.  although, fruits is kinda sweet... hm... so maybe just water.  do it for a week.  then don't binge after.  that ought to work.  i think.  if i try it, by the end of the week i'm dead.  so i can't.

seriously, i shouldn't have gone out today.  i'm still practically recovering.  the mood is totally off.  there had been too much time in between.  i have been doing so well.  to sum it up: it suck.  seriously. 

in fairness, he looked really, really good.  and he smelled so nice.  while i, look horrible.  i have mommy hair (my new haircut's a grrr...).  i lost more pounds.  gad! can you believe i could actually lose more pounds???  and well, i just don't feel like i look good.  i have self-esteem issues! :p he was pretty nice too. 

i dunno... maybe this what an ending feels like. 

been feeling really bummed out lately.  just feels like i look like crap.  i know.  i'm sooo vain.  but i can't help it.  so what did i do?  i splurged.  regardless that i have loads of bills to pay.  and that i'm not yet done paying them.  and that i skipped work for a week (total).  and i most prolly won't be getting enough by the end of the month considering i have alot of out of town trips planned for october and driving lessons to pay for.

i know it's so cliche.  but really, if you need an instant ego boost, pamper yourself.  had my hair done awhile ago in my favest place, zalon.  i just love their service there.  the people are just so nice, not over priced, and they're pretty good.  but i like them most coz of the people.  i can't stand places with sucky service... regardless how good they are.  i'm just arte that way.  if only it's not all the way in manila.  *sigh*

 p.s. i'm soo loving my hair right now.  i feel pretty. minsan lang to happen yan.  not the pag-fe-feeling, the good hair day. hahaha!

was sooo tempted to cross the line the other day.  how could i spend such a short amount of time with someone, yet still feel extremely good about it?  but seriously, could i?  what if we're not meant to go there.  what if this is as good as it gets.

suckiness.

there has to be something more.  this is getting frustrating.  unless this is just totally one-sided.

more suckiness.