...because yesterday was halloween and i haven't posted any pics for loooong while and i'm so much into film strips right now and my neurons are still on vacation so i can't really write  decent entry yet although i've really been meaning  to for a while now (whew!).  i give you, last week's TLC Halloween Party: 

just got done with the driver's ed thing.  by next week, it's back to work so no more driving lessons for me... unless i manage to wake early enough to hitch with my dad and make him make me drive. hehe...

i have new-found respect for driver's who do manual whose engines do not die.  my engine always dies.  not as bad as the first day, but it still happens.  mostly when i get stressed...  like when somebody suddenly crosses the road or overtakes without warning or some idiotic policeman making me stop on the intersection when i'm going fast.

now i understand ex whenever he sortof refuses to kiss me back while he's driving.  it's hard to keep your eyes off the road.  but i like being a road hazard.

i think i'm driving my instructor nuts.  i pop stupid questions at the most inopportune times.  like when i made a turn and he warned me about hugging the sides too much coz there's a pretty deep canal: "anong mangyayri 'pag naulog tayo sa canal?  panu tayo makakalabas?"  or when some stupid motorcycle driver suddenly cuts me off: "pag nasagasaan ko ba yang motor, kasalanan nya yun di ba?"  things like that.  i honestly just like to think out loud.  it relaxes me.  it might not be too good to passengers though.  hmm...

i'm learning to drive maual but our cars are automatic.  i know!  i'm giving myself unnecessary headache.  but the skill may come handy some time in the future.  i believe in pre-planning.

i actually prefer manual to 'matic.  so much more stressful.  hehe... seriously.  with manual, i'm thinking while i'm on the road.  i'm more alert.  i need a certain amount of stress to function properly.  no stress and you won't get a decent work out of me.  too much however is bad for me physically.  i breakout with conditions i didn't know i have.

had an unbelievably great saturday night. 

after three years... FINALLY!  who would have thought i have this much patience for anything --Mistress Diaries: the saga continues.

i know i shouldn't even be in tis sitch... but... as long as it woldn't be as bad as things with ex, i think i can handle it.

is it worth the headache and quite possible heart burn this would eventually cause?  yes.

can't wait to see him again....

exciting news!  tomorrow, MMDA will be trying out something new in honor of their first year anniversary (i think).  they're willing to give anarchy a chance.  no traffic enforcer will apprehend any traffic violators (either vehicles or pedestrians) under the assumption that people are inately god and will follow the rules of the road out of their own free will without the fear from punishment.  no beating the red light, no "no u-turn", no coding no "no jaywalking"... goodluck!  hopefully, we will not see carcasses and crushed tin cars littered on the streets of manila.

of course, i'm sure Makati, with their Makati police, will not join in the fun.  party poopers.

back from my three day with the girls and my legs are killng me! 

kung ang hita ko ay nakapagsasalita, ano ang sasabihin nto? 

puneta ka janine!  anong aka mo, active lifestyle mo?!  sedentary living ka!  nag-iisip ka ba nung umakyat ka ng dalawang bundok??

can you believe i seriously climbed over two mountains back and forth!  me???  miss damsel-in-destress-with-no-coordination-whatsoever was able to survive?!  good lord, i never want to do that again!  in fairness, the whole thing was fun.  a pain in the legs, but fun.  it won't be my sort of thing, bu it was fun.

i will share details when i have the pics na.  but to summarize, we went up two mountains, had alot of near death experiences, slipped on alot of mud, hugged a couple of trees to death, walked up and down really steep mountains sides, almost got run over by a colt, and had to walk back at night, with no lights except for 3 cellphones!  adventure!  good thing my mind shut off that time coz i never got scared just really tired.  all i  could think about was step-step-step.  it took us 3 hours to lcimb up, and 4 hours to walk down.

thank gad i was withsuch good people.  otherwise, i prolly would've been left for dead. hehehe... 

i'm sooo disappointed.

and slightly pissed.

the fun's just starting and already i'm getting disappointed. maybe it's not really worth it. seriously. if i'm feeling like this right now, what more if i let this continue? it's a bad image of the future. maybe it's a good thing to get out early. hmm... after 3 years, this is early. sure why not?!

i have to get numb. i'm much too emotionally involved. i've always been much too emotionally involved. maybe that's why i get disappointed. i have two modes: apathetic or obsessive. not the scary stalkerish obsessive of course. just very much attached, regardless.

numb.

numb.

numb.

because i'm some kinda' demented...

now i feel guilty.  he was actually doing the right thing... well was doing the right thing, then i came along...  ok, so given that i've been around for quite a while.  but i didn't say no when i should've either. 

maybe we're better off if we stuck to before saturday night.  platonic was good.  i seriously wanted more, but maybe there is something to this waiting business. 

last night i went out to watch my first bond movie ever.  i had no idea james bond's good.  ok.  so i had an idea.  i just didn't like it that much coz i haven't watched any yet.  but it was pretty cool.  he was funny and funny and funny.  hehe... he wasn't cute.  but the girls we're pretty.  i love her red dress!  joma was laughing at us for talking about fashion in a james bond movie.  keber.  i didn't like the way things happened with the girl in vienna though.  surely, they could've done something better!  then again, i'm not the director.  so wag mag-maganda.

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finally got the pics from buruwisan falls! will be posting as soon as i finish the thingy i'm doing with it.  nangangarir! hehe...

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minet lost the other cd, with the one from my birthday and pictorials in dili, somewhere on her way home.  hopefully, we wouldn't find our faces plastered over something icky and not nice. 

wouldn't it be horribly funny if by some perverted luck we actually know the person who finds the cd?

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i should be doing my evals.  unfortunately, i'm still not in the mood.  i can't write.  i can't work.  i'm in my tamad modes.  yargh!  therefore i blog.

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did a car wash thing in school. my kids got so very wet.  but it doesn't matter.  it was so fun!  they loved the the thought playing with soap suds and throwing buckets of water to rinse the car.  and sometimes they it to themselves.  amazing!  we walked back inside drenched.

i need medicated sleep on the weekend.

or maybe alcohol.  alcohol seems nice... puts you in a nice dazed mood.  i like dazed.  not much for cognitive thinking.

i had a weird dream.  hopefully it's not one of my pyscho dreams.  the ones that actually happen.  i have a guilty subconscious.

i hate being ignored.  ex is not ignoring me lately.  what's up with that?  i'm not into ex now though... 'course the attention is still kinda' nice.  urgh! how insecure can you get?!

i will make more sense one day.  maybe not anytime soon.  i'm limbo-ing.

i'm feeling lethargic.  finally got my sleeping aids.  hehe...  it was so nice to be able to sleep early.  happiness!

wish i can see him today.  it's been a looooong while.  i miss him already.

my body's sore.  i am soo out of shape.  i haven't had that much fun for a long while... 

i could think of a million reasons why this shouldn't go on; unfortunately, i'm having too much fun to want to stop. 

things just seems to fit right... 

my puppy got tampo with me this morning.  well, actually, since saturday.  she's sooo used to going out of the house for a walk with me, and waiting for the trike.  or she'd ride the car with me til guard house and walk back with the maid.  of course she couldn't last saturday.  she ignored me this morning!  didin't want to walk out with me!  my puppy's turning out to be too much like me: ksp.  hahaha!

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i took this job offered by ex.  now i'm overwhelmed with the responsibility, i sortof want out.  insecurities acting up again.  i'm not sure if i could do a good job.  it's weird he thinks i could when i've never really tried that sort of thing before.  i'd feel really bad if i let him down.

it's going to be a four-day work week!  yey! 

classes was suspended today.  but i had to go to work.  yeuch!  had a parent-teacher/therapist conference, so ays lang din.  wasn't really physical activity work, just talk, talk, talk.  all i had to do was sit, smile and try to look smart, which i manage to do surprisingly (the look smart thing).  i still find it sortof amazing when people take my evaluation results and suggestions without question.  they actually belive me!  looking at my posts i sound pretty airhead-ish.  i just need to dye my hair blonde, and i'd be perfect.  sometimes i don't know if i really make sense, or i'm just good mag-projek.  seriously.  i think i've perfected the art of projek-ting from internship that i'm able to do it so well right now. hehehe...

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so i had to look like tao this morning.  definitely not my usual greenhills shirt and rubber.  i have no more clothes.  how can someone whose closet is overflowing with clothes have nothing to wear?!  then i had to pick my shoes.  i have no more shoes either!  i have too many flats and not enough heels.

i need to do some serious shopping soon.  when budget permits.

the last one i bought was this pink blouse.  you can never have too much pink in your wardrobe.  gak! hahaha!

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i hope reming skips metro manila.  i cannot bear another week of black out.  speaking of which, what is the differnce between black out and brown out? 

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i miss him already... and all the fun things we do. hahaha!  seriously.  i never had that much fun before.  hmm... sounds bad.  maybe i better start thinking about taking up knitting. hahaha!