GIven all the free time I have, you'd think I'd have more blog posts right?  Unfortunately, when you're living with other people who bums around as much as you, you have to mingle.  Also flickr is taking up too much of my time lately.  Taking pictures is more fun than writing.

Now for something random (or not).

Relationships hate me.  I think.  I saw a plurk the other day about people feeling they don't deserve to be in a relationship, and I sortof' get that.  Being in one mess after another doesn't exactly inspire confidence in relationship skills.  Or maybe it's just my people skills that sucks.  This is funny coming from someone who used to teach pre-school.  Or maybe I'm blaming this on attachment issues.  Blegh!  I have too much issues.

I'm serious about attachment issues though.  I dont like liking people too much.  Cos I have this nutty belief that they'd leave eventually, and that's there's no point of geting attached when I'm just going to be left behind.  Insane, I know.  So how do I deal with this?  I dish out crap.  Seriously.  I drive people against the wall, and well, don't stop til they run far, far away.  Then I'd be sane again, and realize that I've been acting crazy, but also figure out that it was bound to happen eventually, and that this is actually better.  Less time spent, less attachment.  Also, I'm very good with rationalizing.  It's a skill. 

You'd have to wonder at this point why I even still have friends.  Surprisingly, I still do.  Yes, they're nuts too.

There are days when I wish I'm normal.

One of the things I miss most is getting to places easily.  This is not a commuters place.  The nearest mall, by car, is only 15 minutes away; but by bus, is an hour long.  That is not very convenient.  The nearest outlet mall is about an hour and a half away.

Thank goodness Barnes&Noble is a bit nearer to our place.  At least there's a convenient book place around.  Of course I can also get my fill of fiction and children's books online, so at least the looking should be easy.  If I get really lazy I could also get my clothes online.  Most of these things are pretty accessible in online, if you only know where to look.  Everything from clothes to books to activity sets can be found easily.  There are sites where you can even sort it by brand and price range.  I jjust bought a couple of shirts from Wet Seal, and I think they're uber cute.  Unfortunately I wouldn't be anywhere near the place for the next week, so at least I have an option to get more clothes.  Not that I should do.  It's hard enough trying to stuff all my things in my luggages.  I still am waiting to be shipped off to wherever I'm supposed to work in.

In the meantime, I better get myself ready to take my driver's exam.  Urgh.