GIven all the free time I have, you'd think I'd have more blog posts right?  Unfortunately, when you're living with other people who bums around as much as you, you have to mingle.  Also flickr is taking up too much of my time lately.  Taking pictures is more fun than writing.

Now for something random (or not).

Relationships hate me.  I think.  I saw a plurk the other day about people feeling they don't deserve to be in a relationship, and I sortof' get that.  Being in one mess after another doesn't exactly inspire confidence in relationship skills.  Or maybe it's just my people skills that sucks.  This is funny coming from someone who used to teach pre-school.  Or maybe I'm blaming this on attachment issues.  Blegh!  I have too much issues.

I'm serious about attachment issues though.  I dont like liking people too much.  Cos I have this nutty belief that they'd leave eventually, and that's there's no point of geting attached when I'm just going to be left behind.  Insane, I know.  So how do I deal with this?  I dish out crap.  Seriously.  I drive people against the wall, and well, don't stop til they run far, far away.  Then I'd be sane again, and realize that I've been acting crazy, but also figure out that it was bound to happen eventually, and that this is actually better.  Less time spent, less attachment.  Also, I'm very good with rationalizing.  It's a skill. 

You'd have to wonder at this point why I even still have friends.  Surprisingly, I still do.  Yes, they're nuts too.

There are days when I wish I'm normal.