this is Perlumbaan Kedua for you ignorant fools
IHATEYOU!
(not as much as Julia)
BUT I STILL HATE YOU
anyway
after all the injustice you've done me
IT'S TIME TO BID FAREWELL
BYEBYE TUK KURA
AND
GANG!
=D
seipokaiJuliaIhateyouforever
hah!
fuckoff
@!#?
vulnerable, but in a nice kind of way
:D
^dapat yan yung title tas yung ellipsis and smiley yung text, pero para makaiwas ng random readers, ayan. mwehehehe.
The heart knows no hiatus. It grows in silence. It is unaware of succession. It doesn't question. It helplessly beats for reasons unknown to the bearer, or it may be devoid of reason at all. Hence is associated with insanity, madness, blindness, folly. But something so beautiful and transcendental would definitely not be a product of stupidity. It is there. It exists. It is felt. It tries hard not to deceive its bearer. Resistance and denial only make a moron out of its bearer. It doesn't suggest profoundness. Happiness ought to be simple. Otherwise, only a few could afford understanding the meaning of joy.
Had a dream last night that I was in an unnamed urban sprawl at night. I was walking to some unknown destination, having just left a party or a gathering of sorts. It might've been a family function because I kept thinking of my grandmother. The city was totally sketch. It was poorly lit, and lots of shadows lurking everywhere. I felt terribly unsafe, and an uneasiness came over me when I heard footsteps behind me. I turned around quickly and glanced at this homeless man wearing a raggedy trenchcoat. He wore a wool hat much like Tyrone Biggums from the Chapelle Show. Except he wasn't funny. This was dead serious. I knew how it was going to go down, so I turned around and faced him. He had a gun in his hand. He demanded money and anything else I had of value.
I took my wallet out and gave it to him. He demanded I empty my other pockets. I did, and showed him a cell phone. He wanted my cell phone. I refused to give it to him. I told him to just to take my wallet and go. He relentless in his demand, but I wouldn't concede. Eventually I got pissed off and threw my phone way up in the air across the street. He ran to go grab it and I ran after him. He still had the gun, but for some reason, our roles switched, and now I was chasing after him and he was actually running away from me. He got the phone and just ran. I gave chase. The fool was fast, but I was angry, and that anger fueled my haste in pursuit of this thug. I eventually caught up to him outside of a building. I kept yelling at him, give me my fucking cell phone back! You mother fucker! I wasn't even thinking about the fact that just moments earlier this guy had a gun. He must have forgotten as well, because he looked to be scared as hell.
Then I woke up and felt really good.
Life is a choice. Stuff happens, and then we get to choose.
Now do I want a spider monkey from South America, or a Yunnan Golden Monkey from China? Looks like the Spider Monkey can slap harder. A sense of security is an important factor when picking the right monkey. I'm going with the Spider.
i took out a scratchpad to write down my expenses and budget shuashua the past few months, so as to figure out the 'theoretical' amount that i should have already saved up from regular job work ekek.
on a side note, alam nyo ba na yung bpi may "save up" option feature where they take off a fixed amount from your balance every payday, tas yung natabing amount na yun only withdrawable sa over the counter. i was really planning on opening another account elsewhere to do just that pero since may ganun na yung atm account ko from the company e di dun na lang.
anyway, i started doodling on the scratchpad before anything else. turns out i don't need to use wire frames anymore (which is a bad habit actually --siguro sa mas mahirap na pose and for facial feature accuracy gagamitin ko rin un etc etc).
tas, yun. kaka miss. so tumingin ako ulit sa job postings, looks like umo-ok na ulit yung mga offers. sana tuloy tuloy nga na ganun.
pero bago sumubok sumaydlayn ulit sa ganun, kelangan kong maging mas healthy... to the point na di ko kelangan ng 9-10 hours of sleep per day on average para lang makabawi sa karamdaman. hay. hopefully the new sched will be easier, since di na ako mapapagod sa truck ban traffic on the way to work... pero pauwi...
siguradong supertrapik naman. hmm. oh well, adjust adjust adjust. 
dunno kung nasabi ko na dito sa tabulas ko, pero target kong maghanap ulit ng sideline after ma-regularize nako, which would be mid november. hopefully nagawa ko na lahat ng adjustments by then para whoosh whoosh.
haha. tamad mag isip ng salita. hahahaha.
